The Wall Falls�

2003-11-04

I'm having trouble with the wall today. The wall between me and my feelings. For the first couple of days after my dad announced his diagnosis, there was no wall. Fear and sorrow seeped into every aspect of my day.

Then life and thought took over. I can't live grieving for someone I haven't lost yet. I can't give up hoping that he might have more time than we fear. And he would not thank me for giving up before he does.

So I built a wall between myself and my fears. But today it fell. I'm sure sometimes it's bound to. Just let me be strong when they need me to be strong.

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