The Best that I can do�

2003-11-06

Dad has gone to the City of Hope and been given news he didn�t expect to hear. They told him that he is a good candidate for a transplant. I think they�re just doing the best they can for every patient they can. They�ve stopped discriminating on the basis of age. I can be nothing but glad.

I feel like I�ve been living on borrowed time since I was 29.

And a major reason that I�m still alive is that my mom and dad gave everything they had to make sure I lived. I�m totally sure I wouldn�t have lived without their caring, without their love and attention. If I can repay this in the smallest measure I will believe myself redeemed.

They gave no small part of their time and attention to keep me alive. I know I would have died without them.

I would give anything to have this not happen. But it is happening. There is a battle to come. I can�t stand in the front line. Only the patient stands there. I will, however, stand in the wings, ready to support. How could I do less? My parents, both of them, have given me life twice. Once in giving me birth and again when I couldn�t care for myself. There is no way I do anything less than the best I can.

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